I am a mightly crystal brick. Shiny bullet proof thick, sweet and pure and slippery-slick. Absent from the distance, holding me back in time. Total recall. I used to have. Now I forget too much from day to day. And remember too much from yesterday. There was a time I truely prayed. I believed. Belived in something stronger, something greater. An all knowing all-creator. An omnipotent omnipresence. Some may call it god. Now I call it wrong and sick and odd. To think theres someone always watching, that there is something out there. Has everyone running scared. Looking over shoulders, hoping to be missed… Dear lord,you know I think… You know, if you really DO exist.. Man, you GOTTA be pissed. Look at the mess we’ve made. With all this shit we do to each other. Brother fucking over brother, kids spitting on their mothers… Takes to long for us to discover, that we’re all we got on this damn stupid rock. We’re all we fucking got. But our biggest claim to undying fame, is a the fucked up shit done in your name. And when we fuck it up, we displace the blame. “The devil made me do it.” “Don’t blame me, the gun ain’t mine.” “Motherfucker, what do you mean, when I left her the bitch was fine!” “She fell, she fell! Aw, go to hell! I told you twice, the bitch, she fell!” God bless the little children. And all the shit done to them. Preists in shepards clothing, Costantly disrobing. And who but they must bless them, when the sit smug in their confession. A vow cannot be broken, so when the truth is spoken. A blind eye must be turned… And what fucking pennence is earned? How many hail fucking marys does it take to wash THAT sin clean? Is that what God has come to mean? It’s enough to make me turn green… Makes me sick. So here I sit, thick as a goddamn fucking brick. What am I supposed to do? I used to believe in you. Saw it as a one big honest truth. But then I saw too much of the abuse, that this sick world can produce… Bust just in case you ARE out there, hiding somewhere… Heres to you, God. This one’s for you, God… FUCK YOU.